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From Mathew’s Journal

3-20-14
Yesterday got back from the hospital. I’m feeling a bit more chipper today. I tried to rest my eyes plenty.

The things that are causing me the most anxiety are memories and moral questions. I don’t know why they haunt me now.

I wrote down a quote, I don’t know who from….
“You don’t need to understand what’s happening for it to be happening.”

Strange, as this uncertainty is what gets most at me now.

To Do List (moving this to journal)

  • Organize meals - working on
  • -go grocery shopping - mindful of PH - more needs to do
  • - email
    • Allison
    -  Dr. Pharr
    -  Dr. Hobbs
    -  Candy
    -  Virginia 
    -  Sue Henry
    -  Sarah Mann
    -  Big Mike

  • set up alter
  • organize files and folders
  • transfer poems to collection
  • transfer all dirty cat mixes
  • transfer all clean cat mixes
  • Home Healthcare - lung supplies
  • Finish SSDI and do interview
  • call Joseph Noonish?

Then there is a detailed list, taking an entire page where Mathew keeps a log of how many times he used his spirometer (16 times on the 20th and 25 times on the 21st)

The times and amounts when he emptied his bill drain.
Bowel movements
And even though I was writing it down, Mathew kept a log of times and amounts of any meds he had taken.

****dirty and clean cat mixes are referring to his music tracks.
https://soundcloud.com/confectionsforcats




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