Confections For Cats

From Mathew’s Journal      5-1-2014 Today I am scheduled for a 1-day out-patient chemo. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous.   - Last night I went to sleep.                  Text to Allison                  No chemo today                  Platelets too low                  Nxt week                  Stomach measurement is down another                   2 inches.                  New CT scan June 4th                  Bilirubin .8!!                  Sent May 1                                                   Yay!                                                    Rec’d May 1 Mathew’s Journal Still doing scan at 12 weeks Very few people actually get the 2 week. More than 7 days, we might need to up down the I.E. **  - No chemo, my platelets are too low. 5-7-2014  - Been feeling too low to write in my journal. Not sure what I would write about anyway.  -Funny to think about faces and how they change. Every day

Mathew's Journal May 27th, 2014 List for stuff for chemo. A self-portrait of Mathew with his biliary drain and bag. Even the bandage on his abdomen. I wonder about the wings. Were they because he felt that the veil between him and the next world was wearing thin? He didn't draw his port. Was the bilibag more a part of him or did he feels it's permanence? Maybe I will find out more of his thoughts about these things as I continue my journey through his journey.