Journal Entry from A Young Man Diagnosed with Cancer

Following is an entry from Mathew’s journal, June 2014. He is reflecting on how this started.

“I fell asleep on my Grandmother’s couch and had disturbing dreams.

-A couple of hours later, I got a call from the nurse practitioner. She asked how I was doing, I wasn’t doing any better, and she told me to go to the ER.

-Once I was checked into the hospital, I told them I was reacting the Horizant

(I have edited part of this because he has confused Horizant with another medicine he is receiving at this time).

The Doctor smiled at me, fittingly and pressed on my abdomen near my liver. I screamed out in pain; a pain I did not know was possible. Then she had me rushed away to get an abdominal scan.

(When this same Doctor came in to give us the results of the scan, she looked frightened, as she should have, since pressing down on Mathew like that could have caused tremendous problems. Again, she that assumed he was having liver problems due to his own misconduct).

-The Doctor looked down at me and said, “I believe you have a sizable tumor.”

I felt like I had been lied to. I had a huge sense of disbelief and figured that when I was admitted that someone would come and tell me it was a huge mistake. Nobody ever came in once I was admitted to telling me it was a mistake, in fact, I did have a huge tumor, and everyone in the hospital was there to confirm the terrible news.”

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