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Mathew's Journal Ritalin Helps Him Be Productive

Mathew’s Journal
5-7-14

I almost fall every time I’m in the shower. Thank God Bob Larkin installed a handrail for free. It’s my lifeline with my newfound shower privileges.
 - on days I’m too weak I still give myself a sponge bath in fear I’ll hit my head.
 - Finally now with running water and Dial soap the black bandage lines are rolling up and washing down the drain.
 - I have stretch marks on my legs from the edema. They look like red streaks of lightning on my inner thigh, leading up to my groin.

Ritalin Ritalin - it’s what fills the pages - it’s a miracle for the last 2 weeks all I could do was sleep.
   - doze off while reading, watching TV, or playing video games.

  - go see the doctor and she says I can take more Ritalin again, (one of the doctors had significantly lowered my dose).
But now I have that fire again, but I’m nervous too - as my veins are going to be filled with that wrathful chemo.

A lot of times I’m cold but I’m sweating. I fall asleep sitting up wrapped in sheets and I wake up wet and sweating.


 - sometimes, when I awake I stare down at my feet and watch them twitch.


Pictures on the TV show scenes of the underwater - seahorse - octopi - gentle sharks. 
All meant to soothe the patients. I'm waiting in the supportive care waiting room. I have a therapy appointment, my first one before I go upstairs for the vein fire.
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