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Mathew Prepares for his Upcoming 5 Day I.E. Chemo

I preface this journal entry with a reminder that this is when Mathew was staying at my sister Kathleen’s house and she told him that he could have visitors any time he wanted and was able.

From Mathew’s Journal

4-14-14

Today, the day before my next 5 day round of chemo, Rinpoche and Ralph came to visit.
-It was a good visit although I was nervous at first before they showed up.
-Ralph gave me a small prayer wheel and said it was Paula.
-Rinpoche taught me some meditation techniques to supplement mantra recitation and to help alleviate the suffering of the disease. He also answered my questions about Karma. 
-When I asked him about my dreams he said that was good sign and that it showed the bodhisetta going to help an earnest (don’t know if this is best description, Rinpoche’s was better) practitioner.


Tomorrow is chemo again.
I am nervous of course
 -but I need to be mindful.
I think about the article I read about children receiving chemotherapy. 
  -they were told that it was superhero formula.
   -JLA comics are given to them that have Superman, Batman and Wonderwoman receiving the same superhero formula to cure them of a disease so they can fight crime again.

-I have started to think of chemo as my superhero formula, as childish as that seems
-the truth of it is, is that even as it does destroy my body for a short while, it empowers it too.

-Just two treatments and already a significant improvement.
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